Where Does My Help Come From?

Linking up today for Pour Your Heart Out with Shell at Things I Can’t Say.

 


I look around my crazy house.

I see clothes strewn on the floor.

I see a pile of trash & paper bits poured from the bottom of my diaper bag.

I look into the messy kitchen.

I see a stack of dishes.

I see a counter that needs to be wiped, and yogurt and lunch on the table.

 

I need to sweep. I need to mop. I need to transfer laundry.

I need to vacuum.

I need to wipe.

I need to fold

and iron

and sort.

But I want to cut out patterns

on my beautiful new fabrics.

I want to sit in the quiet

and sew

and get work done.

But I’ve got a toddler showing me needs -

baring his cute little teeth in anger when I say “naptime”

 

I give a choice and I rock and sing.

And when I’m kicked while comforting him,

I give the choice again.

Finally, I nurse him down to sleep. And I sneak out of the room.

And here I am, by the computer, pouring my heart out to you.

 

I lift my eyes up to the hills. Where does my help come from?

My help comes from the LORD – the maker of heaven and earth.

 

I need to remember this. When Joe is baring teeth.

When I am kicked and scratched and pummelled

by a toddler with needs and a temper.

 

I need to remember this. When I look at my messy house.

When I think “when will I ever get out ahead -

- can I get ahead of the mess?”

 

I need to remember this. When I think of my baby girl.

She’s at preschool and still I’m having trouble

balancing everything here.

 

I need to remember this. When I look at my to-do list.

When I want to say “forget this mess! I am so ashamed of myself”

and weep that I’ll never get anything done.

I lift my eyes up to the hills. Where does my help come from?

My help comes from the LORD – the maker of heaven and earth.
I will praise you in this storm. And I will lift my hands.
You are who You are, no matter where I am.
And every tear I’ve cried – You hold in Your hand.
You’ve never left my side. And though my heart is torn,
I will praise You in this storm.

 

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